You Never Know

June 13, 2011

You’re having the best Sunday. Spending time with your loved ones. Having coffee and cake and then a little something stronger of course. Enjoying an all-smiles-and-laughter sunny afternoon. To round off a splendid day you decide to go watch a friend’s gig in the evening. Meeting up with lovely people. Great ambiance, good fun.
And right in the middle of a song, the drummer falls down and does not get back up. It’s funny for the first ten seconds ’till you see somebody perform CPR and you realize it’s not funny at all. People frantically running back and forth; somebody calling an ambulance and still it’s hard to acknowledge what’s actually going on because literally two minutes ago everybody was laughing and rocking out to the music.
You’re numbed and wonder why it’s taking so long for the ambulance to get here. And the CPR continues… precious minute after minute after minute. This roadie elaborates about how dear old Luc was actually experiencing heart problems for some time now (age 51) and all of his friends had been urging him to please make a doctor’s appointment but you know how that goes right? He’s so busy playing in different bands, holding down a job and being a volunteer for the local Red Cross (oh the irony) and nobody likes going to the doctor, do they?
The ambulance arrives and you see the paramedics getting the paddles out. You hear yourself saying:  “He’s not going to die here and now, is he? This isn’t really happening.” Band members are crying now. Others seemingly gaze into nothing. You’re getting teary eyed over somebody you don’t really know. These are the longest twenty-five minutes.
Police arrives and tries to block the view from people who keep popping up, trying to get up close, not wanting to miss one minute of this “sideshow”. Disgusting. By now your heart is pounding like crazy and your stomach’s in a knot. All the while you continue talking to the roadie who tries to keep the conversation going with the usual clichés. “Well, you see, you never know what’s going to happen next. And he’s so young. I guess he won’t be doing anymore gigs any time soon now.”
Finally the ambulance drives off. And you have no idea how Luc, whom you barely know, is doing. Friends running around phoning other friends and even more people showing up. You find yourself playing the little reporter and giving everyone who wants to, a rundown of events occurred. You tell your good friend you can’t go home just yet and you could really do with a beer right now. You do what you can. Console, comfort, give unsolicited advice. Anything to take your mind off how you’re really feeling.
After half an hour you decide you’ve calmed down now but then you find yourself having a little cry in the pub’s restroom. You emerge and your friend tells you she received a call telling her that Luc has a pulse and that he’s stabilized for now. So you ask if it’s ok we go get something to eat ’cause you’re starving? You do and you sit down and eat. Converse. Laugh even. After all of that you go home. You recall the roadie’s clichés. And you wholeheartedly agree that you really never know what’s coming next.

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  1. It’s thrue. You have to live your own life (with others). Today it’s sunny and tomorrow it’s raining. Those things happen maybe to remind us to enjoy good and bad.

  2. You were part of a group of people going trough the same feelings and solidarity. I can imagine, it was a very special experience. Although it was not a very pleasant one. Fortunately with a good ending. Inge

    • It was an eye-opening experience to say the least…

  3. Wow Nathalie… let us hope that he will come out of this without to many compications…

    • Yes Nathalie, i really hope so as well…

  4. Life is a precious thing isn’t it and indeed, cherish every day, day by day !!!!!!


  5. You had me quite concerned that the ending outcome was not going to be as hopeful as it is; hopefully, now Luc will be under medical care and make whatever changes are necessary to extend his life and lessen the likelihood of another such occurrence. I was quite relieved to read that the had a pulse and had been stabilized. I pray that the fact that people seemed to start CPR quickly will minimize any damage from any potential lack of air. But I fully understand how horrible it must have been to have a happy time so suddenly go wrong in such a way. Hugs to you dear friend, and to Luc a healthier future with no more issues such as this.

    • Thank you Maryanne for your wonderful words

  6. yes, you really never know… I tell myself every single day.

  7. Nathalie, Yes, that is very big and a lot to process. I experienced a situation that felt similar to this in recent times. Can be life changing. Thank you for reminder, as Kelly said, to live and love in each moment…

  8. I just read your blog Nathalie. Thank you for reminding me to live and love in each moment. Sending you love and a big hug!

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